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Oct 20th

i moved out of my studio. its the first time in three years i have not had a studio. i think this is a good idea. if anything, i have less obligations in this world now. feels pretty good

on sundays i read the weekend NY Times and i take notes on all the illustrations used in the paper. i look up each artist and check out their instagrams and which art directors they worked with. then i stalk and follow the AD. i need them to see me.

i might get back into painting


SEPTEMBER 22nd 2019

i dont know who is reading this. i think some of my friends found out that i put pictures here.

today is sunday. sunday used to be my 'lazy day' but now it feels like every day is my lazy day. it feels like i have less and less control each day :) its like im watching myself turn to sand and i dont even want to stop it. my bed is full of sand anyways. dust to dust.

someone throw me some structure, would ya?? its been about...5 years. 5 years since i was in school which was the last time i had structure, other than court, and court could not last forever

having a studio feels like a waste of money since i dont use it.


Today after over 1 year i finally updated this website. the reason i keep this website is because I think one day instagram and facebook will be dead and this website will still remain because it belongs nowhere. this is my tiny piece of the internet and its controlled by me (and my domain name server, but whatever)

its fashion week again and i did a little drawing at some shows. i also collaborated with my friend Carly Mark's clothing line called Puppets and Puppets. carly is extremely special because something is wrong with her brain, too, and she makes art from it. we have been friends for about 5 years when we were whores who lived at sophies and josies and black market and niagra.

in late spring, i made a bunch of digital illustrations that looked airbrushed. carly wanted to license one to make into a print for her collection and said duh yes.

half of the time when i make something, i hate it 24 hours later. so to create something in May and have it live a second life in September was challenging for my brain. seeing this dress with my drawing on the runway felt like my drawing grew up and moved out into being an independent woman right before my eyes. i dont know her anymore. here she comes, there she goes. she looked amazing and shes getting a really positive response. thank you carly.


the day before the Puppets and Puppets show, i went to orientation/training for Court Watch. Court Watch is a non-profit that is the 'eyes and ears of new york city courtrooms'. what does that mean. well it means that sometimes in arraignments, the DA is an asshole. (sometimes, most of the time). So, in order to keep tabs and statistics on convictions, bails, warrants, charges, demographics, etc, Court Watch has their volunteers sit in court. we have a special paper to fill out with the information from each hearing. i plan to draw in court because i like drawing in court. drawing and collecting information.

i only went to the training, and its on me to schedule my volunteer hours. so lets just be sure i do that....